Sep 28, 2007

Confusion

All I know is that must be really hard for our loved ones to understand us as people with Diabetes. I know I confuse my husband on a daily basis.
On one hand, I want him to be supportive of my healthy choices and I want him to understand this disease. I want him to encourage me to eat right and get to the gym especially when I know I may be faltering at times. (Not at the moment though) :) I am being good and it really bothers me if he offers me candy or cake. I say to myself, "Hello, you know I am diabetic, are you trying to kill me?" of course this is me, being dramatic.
But, on the flip side, when I want to have that occasional indulgence, I don't want to hear him say, "Susie, you really should not have that, what will this do to your blood sugar?" Because then, I feel guilty if I do decide to treat myself. But, sometimes I feel entitled to give myself a little treat. I feel like it is not that bad if I have a couple of cookies after a day of watching my meals, many finger-pricks, and just having to think about this disease.
The thing is that I leave my poor husband confused. The same pretty much happens at work too. Now that I have "come out" of the diabetes closet at work, people comment if THEY think I may be having something a diabetic should not have. I was having a peach! Do you feel the same?

Sep 27, 2007

What could this be???

For the last few mornings, I have been waking up high with bg's in the 160's. I was wondering if I could have been having overnight lows since I have been going to bed aroung 95. I thought this would explain the high in the morning-that my liver was probably reacting to the low??
I was encouraged to test at bedtime, 3 am, and then 6am. I went to bed at 107, came in at 94 at 3 in the morning, and then 145 fasting this morning at 6am. This morning spike has only been occuring in the mornings and for the last week or so. Other than that, my numbers are excellent. If anyone has any idea what could be going on, I'd luv to hear from you.

Sep 21, 2007

Oh Happy Day!

Today is a beautiful day and it my son's birthday! I am so happy. I am leaving work early today so that I can rush home since we are having a BBQ Swim party. My only concern is that I need to stay on track with my diet this evening. I really don't want to have any cake. I've been doing so well, even starting to lose some weight. I don't want to end up feeling like I'm depriving myself but...is it worth it? I guess that depends on the cake! HA. :))
Bye for now...more later.

Sep 18, 2007

49er

Last Night
It happened...a scary low. I remember when finally regaining control over my BG's, 90 felt like a low that I needed to treat. Now I have had far better control. However yesterday was a very stressful day. My tire blew out and I had to stand out in the heat for a considerable amount of time until my brother-in-law was able to come and change my tire!
I finally made it home a couple of hours later and had dinner. Two hours later, I started feeling a little numb but I still felt ok. I checked on my Aviva and I was shocked to see a BG of 49. I felt very anxious and was desperate to get some juice! Everything in the fridge was either bottle water or some sugar-free drink! DUH?? What was I thinking not having regular stuff available. I have just never had a low. Right away, my husband hurried to the store and came back with orange juice. I drank a whole glass in about 1 second or less. I waited 15 minutes and checked and it took over an hour for me to get to 80. I don't know what the heck caused it. I think it is the stress from the day! What scares me the most is that I was not that uncomfortable and it just slowly crept up on me. Then I felt so exhausted as if I were hit by a freight train. I went to bed and had Danny wake me up an hour later to check my blood. He did it was 120. I slept the rest of the night. This is what makes it hard.

Sep 13, 2007

Hello Everyone!

I have been reading many blogs for some time and finally decided today is the day of my first post! I have to say that reading the blogs have helped me in many ways. I need constant help in the motivation department and I feel this will help.
I have been on and off with my Diabetes care plan. It is just so hard staying "on" all the time with this thing! Sometimes you just want to forget for a little while...but of course that can be dangerous. I am on the right path these days. I give myself 2 shots a day in combination with Metformin and Amaryl. It is really working GREAT! Before my bg's were all over the place. Now, they are like 90 after meals. I think my medicine needs to be adjusted a little bit since I am about to start a workout program. I am just feeling so good since my 7 day average has been 95 that I just want to let things "be" for now
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